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Duality. [20 Dec 2009|05:28pm] myclevername [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Boulevard of Broken Songs - Party Ben (And Aerosmith, Travis, Oasis, Greenday) ] I am very skilled in communication. I word things very well. Writing, speaking; largely these are things I find easy, so long as the subject matter is "safe." I am finding it very difficult to express how I am feeling right now. There is a lot of death, a lot of negativity around me; simultaneously, there is hope. Love. Joy. It is a Pollock painting of negative and positive. Indescribably intricate, a web so tangled you cannot have one without the other. The good and the bad. You eliminate one, and the other dies. Without the dark, there can be no light. The surprising result of this is a sense of neutrality, equality, evenness and balance. I feel neither overwhelmingly positive or negative about anything. I feel sadness at the same time as I feel joy. Instead of swinging wildly from one extreme to another, I am walking a line between the two. A duality of emotional sensation. Hot water on one hand, ice in the other. Hard and soft. Smooth and rough. Pain and pleasure. A hot fudge sundae. Indeed, a hot fudge sundae. That is exactly it. The cold, the hot, the fudge mixing with the ice cream. Impossible to separate, impossible to extricate one fully from the other. And why would you want to? An inevitable ending, endless possibility. 7 let me hang | Lead me to the gallows

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